4/20 weekend.

Ha, okay. First off. blogger has decided to change it's layout as far as how things look when I'm typing a post, I do not know if I like it at all, not yet at least. It looks like it's my entire screen! Regardless of that rant, I've had an excellent week, 1 down vs many ups. I'll take that any day! Gzus, this layout makes me feel like I'm in Word typing. Okay, so I'm basically just going to rant about stuff tonight. It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most. Seriously, how could I make that any more true! I've experienced some of the simplest things over the past month and they have made me the happiest of people. I like to think life is easy, we make it hard. That isn't entirely true, sometimes life is going to be shit. Point being, the small things that you do and act on will always outmatch the things that are huge and overdone. Also, did I mention I'm awesome? Well lets get all hopelessly romantic for a bit. Alex and I are doing very well, funny thing, 1 month together fell on 4/20. Oh that silly "holiday" and all it is. I've got to hand it to her parents, what a daughter they've raised. Alex brings out the best side I have, couldn't ask for more. She's easy on the eyes ; ) Easily one of the nicest girls/people I have had the opportunity to meet in my life, and I couldn't be more attracted to the person she is through and through. Now, 1 month isn't any crazy amount of time, but it's just nice to realize how time has passed so quickly and how happy we've been when we're together. Feeling good, we're feeling alright =) It's funny how little time her and I had together over the weekend, last night we were able to sit and talk for an hour or two. Can't complain with that, we talked about a lot actually, a lot of things that well I guess we both sort of just had sort of sitting in our head from time to time. It was nice, it's always nice to hold her in my arms, or just completely bum it sometimes and be lazy around the house with her, although this weekend didn't leave me with much sunshine. I swore at one point it was going to snow today. I was asked for the first time this weekend if I am or was ever jealous of Jesse. Jesse happens to be this guy who was "seeing" Alex prior to her and I meeting. I'm not saying he's a douchebag or anything of that sort, I don't know the guy. I will admit this much, when I asked her to show me him on Facebook the other evening when we were kicking it in her room, I wish I hadn't. Guys certainly stacked as far as being a bit bigger than I am, not saying that's everything by any means. Hell I'm a liar if I don't admit to seeing him and being like wow, um did I luck out or something because dude looks like he tries to be a badass.. .., and might sort of pull it off, hence why I sort of think him and I wouldn't get along one bit, oh and the fact that I "win" Actually I didn't win anything. I guess I am just a good guy, with the right mix of "bad" attitude. Who knows guys, who knows. I'm all about the look that you're giving me =) So, to answer the question. I did indeed say yes I suppose I have been a little, not so much now as opposed to where I had first really been informed of who he was and what they were doing as far as any sort of "relationship" was going on. Which there wasn't. It was one of those meh, I don't know the word for it. Regardless, I am not trying to bad talk him one bit, but yes I suppose a little part of me was at one point, only because I didn't know much and I was so excited to be around you and have met you. No worries though, I'm as normal as the next guy in my reaction I think. Just like you said: I'm with you because I want you, I like you. I'm not with him, I'm not with anyone else, I'm with you. Now I'm going to bounce off of this thing, I am currently repeatedly listening to Rebelution on Spotify.

Freakn Weekend?

I had probably one of the best weekends yet! Aside from the unfortunate expected drama =/ things went great, and I had an awesome time with Alex as well as some of the friends.

Do I believe in the L word as first site, yes, I'm not saying that this is anything like that, but I certainly like this girl a whole lot, and I feel like this is going somewhere, and I feel like it's not going to slow down (within moderation) I know I sound "love struck" or whatever, but it's a crazy world out there, so if that suits the feeling so be it.

I have such a quality girl in my life, how can I, me, Nathan Pipher be so lucky...,

Really, I'm over thinking girls that have all these qualities don't exist, because what's there not to believe, she's right in front of me! She's with me! No one else, there is no bullshit guy(s) trying to cause issues, things are so smooth going, I feel like I try so so hard to explain how much I like the girl, but I risk smothering her or something. As much as she says she's loves hearing how I'm feeling and that she tries to put all her feelings into words herself, I just don't want to ruin it haha.

Now, that's all said and done. Yes, I'm all smiles. Each week I can't wait to see her. I enjoy all of her company! I love the way she makes me feel.

I've started something, I leave notes for her, I try to leave them in odd places or somewhere that I know for sure she'll see them eventually. I like doing it, it's my way of trying to "keep things alive" not that I have to worry about that at all, but you know what I mean, right? It's fun, it's something I like to think she enjoys getting, I imagine her smiling when she reads them, and keeping them somewhere special every time adding to the pile.

Who knows, I think I'm a bit too hopelessly romantic, but this weekends picnic went awesome!!!

I decided I'd get a basket from home, toss 2 wine glasses in it with a wine she likes, and grab a blanket. The food, well I was going to go with take out Chinese, butDel Sol sounded so good! I felt on top of the world putting it together, I felt like this is something she can say no other guy does, that she would love it, and she did.

It all went well, we ate, sat, talked, held hands, all that stuff. And towards the end of it, which was mainly because of a tiny bit of rain that was spitting, anyway as I was saying she looked to me as we layed talking and says "Thank you" she does it with the perfect face, smile, & ughhhh, you have no idea how great of a feeling it is to have a person in your life that respects all the effort you put into something.

Her dad approved =)

Now, it's like 10:21 and I have to get to bed shortly, I hope you read this.

Goodnight!

So,

So, lately has been great. I've been introduced to a girl through a friends girlfriend.

Funny how the world works out. So far, and I don't see this stopping, I am really into her. There is some sort of spark that ignites when she smiles and I can't help but love every moment of it.

She's really got everything I've ever looked for in a person, and in this situation a girlfriend.

I have had my fair share of shit to deal with over the last 3-4 years and it shows right on my sleeve and even more through old posts in this blog. As I sit and read through so many of them, I realize when I said I was happy, I truly wasn't and that's something that was at first very painful to realize, but I'm very glad it is something I am able to look back on now and know wasn't right for me in my life.

That being said, lets get back to the positive, I know no one reads this, and I know the few who even know it exists may or may not even check up on it.

So, Alex, oh Alex, haha.

This girl gives me all sorts of butterflies, we just click.

I have never shared some of the moments I have with Alex in the past few weeks, compared to being with someone for years, it's crazy how much you can sit back and realize.

What can I say, I'm happy & I am glad I finally decided to post something tonight.

I've wanted to delete this entire thing, but truth be told I can't do it. I think I'll end up making a new one soon in terms of starting a new =)

Back to Alex and I, this girl is great! That is the only word I'm going to use because there are some people and things in life you can't put a word for and so far I can't find any other than happiness.

Ugh, just chiefed the hookah and it was way too hot!

I am a.d.d. obviously.

I haven't decided if I want to give her the link to this yet, but I know I will.

On that note, I'm going to sit on Skype.

Goodnight.

There's already a pattern, you let me hang myself for as long as you want, then after you're done with me, you don't even bother to cut me down, you leave me to pick up all the pieces. If a total random turn around doesn't happen, it never will.

Indubitably

I wonder if you already know,

I want to ask but I get distracted by how you glow,

You got me tongue-tied and nervous,

I'm shaking from my head to the sole of my shoes.



I have a problem with my memory,

When it comes to forgetting you,

I can't recall anything at all.



You see darling,

You captivate me,

Accidentally,

And now,

I've fallen in love,

Indubitably.

You know

I wanna see you
and hug you
and kiss you
and make you smile
and make you laugh
and just lie on the sofa next to you
and then just fall asleep beside you
it'd be nice.

John Lennon

This is to you sir, this is for you, all your friends, family, and music, music as it was, is, and will continue to be.

You inspired so many of us, you lifted us up, you felt our pain when we were down.

Although times were different, things were just as hard as they can be now.

I thank you for everything you did in your lifetime, thank you for it all.

You are forever missed & always remembered.